On my own

its been a long time…

onmyown85 — Tue, 28 Jun 2011 16:56:50 +0000

its been a long time since i updated, i dun even remember how my blog looks like. haha. well.. since sunday.. i always wanted to blog about my great sunday…

went science centre with dear dear george and wifey.. has been talking about it the longest of time… well.. my bffs came home from USA.. with lots of loots for me… so happy lar

i want to remember this sunday as well.. coz something amazing happened… i fought with dear dear and thru a friend i understood that love comes in many ways..

i cannot judge ppl love on the basis of what i perceived of love. for he love me with what he knows.. im thankful.. and i hope he doesnt read this post..

as i wan to plan a trip in aug… i couldnt make up my mind about where to go.. and also deliberating about whether i should take the leave and go full force on the driving class.. ie. friday night i should go for road… saturday take circuit and road, sunday another circuit and road, monday take circuit and road, tue PH should be close.. den wed take exams… if so i need to book pang earlier..but i cannot make up my mind.. i actually hope that we could go on a trip….

today met up with the gang.. happiness… and shock that how much mel has think about marrying keith… and zf pass us the wedding card.. heehee.. excited over his wedding tho..

as i am blogging i was thinking about dear dear.. how we progress now this relationship im not sure.. but for now.. i know im of some importance to dear dear… coz..he was listening to me.. and tinking about me and how to make me feel happy in his own cutesy and special way..

good night dearest boyfriend.. i love you so…

Life without you

onmyown85 — Tue, 08 Feb 2011 14:59:34 +0000

Is this it?
Am i all alone again?
I duno, I pray not.
Tell me what I do to rectify this?
I duno if I have done wrong, I duno if I’m naive to think that this would bring about a better ending? Or prolly a faster ending.
I feel insecure, I feel lost, I feel trapped, I feel lousy, I feel unwanted. Now all those practices that has been practising seems to have magnify.
Am I suppose to be positive or am I suppose to believe. I duno. Am I suppose to believe that you really do love me and that you will stay with me thru out difficulties always make me feel wanted, cherish… I really hope to hear the song that you used to sing to Me
I blame myself for loving you enough to trust you.. I blame myself for uncontrollably mapping different r/s ending to be similar. Which is when real problems, true feelings are told, end has come. I’m afraid 1 fine day u will say to me: I think you are right or somebody is right that we shouldn’t be together.. I’m scared.. I scared
History will repeat.. I really am.

Will there really be happily ever after in my story?
How am I suppose to do without you..

Am you show me more so that I know you will always be there..
For I’m betrayed before..

Love.. Where are u.. Can u hear me calling..

Its me who needed u more

onmyown85 — Sun, 31 Oct 2010 08:56:28 +0000

I realize it’s me who needed you more..

I hope it’s not too late..

Bring back bf meet gf day

onmyown85 — Wed, 13 Oct 2010 08:54:16 +0000

Can someone tell me if I’m under a love spell???

Why is it that there will be days that I will miss you alot. But at the same time.. I dun to give pressure…

Today is one of those days.. I duno why from wakin up this morning till on the way home from raffles shopping centre.. I hope u did call me and say let’s go dating.. But well reality is that I’m busy u busy… We could only communicate thru phone…

But I still din say it out despite calling u thrice.. Highest calls per day count!!!

I miss u

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onmyown85 — Tue, 28 Sep 2010 16:24:20 +0000

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我的真心话

onmyown85 — Thu, 16 Sep 2010 10:15:36 +0000

Protected: call out 5:12, call end 5.14

onmyown85 — Wed, 15 Sep 2010 09:29:16 +0000

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Protected: Lets imagine me talking to u dear dear..

onmyown85 — Tue, 14 Sep 2010 16:44:14 +0000

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selamat hari raya

onmyown85 — Fri, 10 Sep 2010 01:12:01 +0000

Friday morning 9am

wat shall i do..

hearing glee advertisement on TV and someone snoring away…

going for driving lessons later at 1030am.. hope its ok.. and where shall we head after that.. i wanna watch going the distance…

btw.. yuana if you are reading this.. pls tell us wat time we can go your house on 19th Sept.

Cheers,

looking forward to a long weekend

onmyown85 — Thu, 09 Sep 2010 09:20:47 +0000

time reads: 5.13pm

I AM so BOOOORRREDDDD.. roars..

shall showcase some things i done for work…

just a side track, i received a call from a student saying she duno how to submit her assignment, its too thick to be filed and they cannot bind coz words at the side.. what should they do!?

I AM stunned no words to describe. haha. time reads 5.20pm, home in 10 mins.